I don't know and I'm not crying .. laughing mostly... as you can see

 I DON'T CARE IF MY WRITING IS GOOD I DON"T CARE IF MY WRITING IS GOOD WELL DO RIGHT FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU I DON"T CARE IF MY WRITING FEELS GOOD TO YOU IF YOU GET IT IF I FOLLOW RULES IF IT LOOKS NICE I JUST CARE IF I OPEN MY MOUTH_SPIGGOT AND HAIR BONES TEETH FALL OUT AND I RINSE REPEAT RINSE REPEAT RINSE REPEAT VERBAL GARBAGE UNTIL IT RUNS CLEAR. UNTIL IT RUNS CLEAR UNDER HOT WATER AND I WRITE EVERY DAY LIKE DADDY JAMES TOLD ME TO. I DON'T CARE IF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I JUST WANT MY SMALL BABY HANDS TO MOVE TO THE MELODY MY FINGERS MAKE AS I STAB THE KEYS WITH THE PADS OF THEM WANDERING JOINTS. I WILL MAKE ALL THE MISTAKES AND STILL LOVE MY WRITING. I ONLY WANT MY MOUTH TO LAY OPEN IN MOIST TEMPERATE RAINFOREST MIND (UNDER MY TONGUE IN SOME CREVICES OF THE FOLDS OF MY >> >>>> >>>> > >>> > >>> INNNER FOLDS OF MY >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>CORPUS COLOSUM>>>>> A PLACE OF PEACE LOVE UNITY RESPECT. I DON'T CARE IF MY WRITING IS GOOD. BEAUTIFUL. FORMED. UNFORMED. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. I DON'T CARE OF MY WRITING IS GOOD. AS LONG AS I CAN MAKE A RHYTHM OUT OF THE PATTERN OF THESE KEYS AND IT FEELS AND SOUNDS GOOD TO MY BEING.