Post-Birthday Weather

 I cut my nails earlier today, washed some sheets, then I threw the blankets out the window and doused them in 2020 corn-based hand sanitizer mixed with tea tree oil.

I burned them to get the stain out.

It got the stain out.

Punched several holes in imaginary walls

and cried on my sheet-less bed as the laundry machine chugged underneath my feet from the basement

I don't think our bodies connect too easily

there is some difficulty there

I have been positive

confident

and i'm not positive

nor confident

I just can be sometimes

"not since yesterday!"

this is probably too much for me

kind of disappointing looking at this unstained wood

falling apart more everything it rains

raw

and

carpenter ants gnawing around its

rusty bolts