questioning this blog as a response to my ... locked down throat talk

 I used to write in this blog just because no one would read it and now it's listed on a public profile of my Instagram

So it feels like like it is a private blog

less like a sheer skirt with red underwear 

less like how you let your skirt hem snag on a rough patch of skin

as you adjust it upwards upwards upwards

so then, it is more real this, whole, "making the public private" thing i think I am doing

this thing it feels like is a disrespectful gross thing

I just thought we were living in a surveillance state

I thought that 20 years ago

I thought to myself, everything is already public

and we now know how deeply it is, but wasn't it always with simply different technology?

__________moving forwards_____stepping into____ the nur system___ the practice ____ the product___the potion____ the omen___ the poem

the abrupt ending