patterns emerged silent

it's really hard to not be afraid. when everyone becomes my mother and my father. when how many years can it take. to have the key to your own body. when your body expands and contracts, is your house, your friends, the spaces you inhabit, the transfer of energy you crossover to others, and when? is it time to relinquish doubt. when you're afraid it'll put some fire of passion out.. or you'll be abandoned. spatially by your father (who is much like a neighbor), emotionally by your mother (who is much like a familiar face), and spiritually by your husband (and any subsequent attraction).
it's really hard to remember thatw hen i see fear in your eyes of me, i am seeing the fear you have of yourself, i am seeing the fear i have of myself, and we complete the circle.
new circle. old rythm. still circles. new circle. stillness. might be different.