hope-fiend / dope-fiend , what's the difference?

idontfeelsane and i dont feel well. but i do feel beautiful and that seems to help.
this trip to delaware makes me SCREAM

im a beautiful bird. im a barf. im a machine.

i hold. marriage. like death.

regardless of who you are. can't we be the same?

membrane, membrane, membrane.

long layers of liars.

i cant trust anyone. you will alll hurt me.
you will all hurt me.

i will help you.

let it go. ur a bad baby.

in apparent corners dust grows. sickens us. and the toxins... rabid dust.

if my memory serves correct, we should ahve been dead by now.
and we're not, so there's something hopeful in that.